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Hello there, happy Tuesday!
Today I want to share a part of my journey with you...of how I went from being a super happy kid to being an introvert and finally bouncing back to finding myself.
My life has been full of ups and downs.
Born in a small town of Assam called Sibsagar, I grew up studying in a co-ed school with some of the most amazing friends anyone could have. I was one of the most popular girls in school, one of the best athletes, a house captain, a tom-boy, good in studies, great gang of friends, loving parents, I had it all. In my small world I was the queen.
However, this wasn't to last long.
This carefree phase ended soon as I moved to a boarding school. A whole new world!
Surrounded by some of the most brilliant, beautiful, rich kids who were not only good in academics but equally good in debate and drama, swimming and horse riding, and everything else - I felt lost!
Began my phase of downs. I started feeling unconfident, ugly, unpolished and incapable. All this not because someone said something but because I had assumed I wasn't good enough. The constant need to fit in, the struggle to be accepted, the desire to look beautiful like the rest of the girls soon made me forget my own personality. The pressure was so immense that it even took a toll on my academics.
Soon began college life, nothing like what I dreamt of!
Nevertheless the lost version of me found love in someone to whom, I now believe, I must have been just another addition to his list. All he was concerned about was my outer appearance and the way I dressed which didn't quite match his expectations. Soon enough, I got dumped for someone else. Another kick to the self confidence!
But somehow I managed to keep myself together.
Thankfully enough, support came in the form of this amazing friend who stood by me during those rough days (and whom I married 7 years later :P)
Now when I look back I still cant help but wonder how things can change overnight. How easily we can succumb to peer pressure and how easily external incidents can affect us. While I was a much more confident person during the later days of my life but there have been multiple times when I have been quite under confident and unsure own abilities. Its a constant struggle.
But the one lesson I have learnt is that there will always be someone better than you, someone different from you but the key is not to try to fit in, instead just do what you do, play your own strength and its perfectly fine to be unique and different. At the end of the day, as long as you love yourself and are ready to work on yourself, nothing else matters. There are definitely a few things that can make you feel confident like grooming yourself, preparing and practicing your stuff in advance and most importantly positive attitude and positive thoughts.
I cannot emphasize enough on the positive attitude. If you ask me today, what in me has changed since then...I would have to say nothing! Just my attitude and that has made all the difference, from being a silent spectator to someone who has the confidence to share her thoughts with the world.
So all you girls and boys out there, no matter what the world tells you - you are beautiful, you are unique, you are special. Never let the world define who you are! You are one of God's finest creations and deserve nothing but the best. So get out there and go grab your dreams! Cos it's time for you to shine <3
Much love,
Roop
